Nap and Dream

I normally don't believe in a big gap of age in love. For example, a young woman marries an older man who is old enough to be her daddy. Sometimes, she would go for his wealth in order to get a comfortable, rich life. She wants to be loved like a daddy loves his daughter with care. I am not sure about a young man marrying an older woman. Maybe he wants her beauty... and possibly her money as well. I would rather to marry a man who is around my age, but little older. I don't want to be a widowed if I married an old man who would die first. Why does a young person marry an older partner? I think the young might have a parent issue or something like that. I feel disturb about that because it is strange to see the big difference in age. To me, the age does matter when it comes to a love.

Still nothing has happened. I'm 36 1/2 years old now. I dream about finding my soulmate from time to time. I think about my age, and I might will give up on building a life with him. It meant I will not have a child at all. I have 11 nieces and nephews already. Having a child is not required for an individual or a couple. I still remember the dream showed me that I will be lonely in a house as I watch a TV show/movie on a DVD. Even though I torture with the loneliness, I still dislike it. Maybe I can't have a happy life. I wish I could see my future. If I happen to find him later, I think I don't mind staying as a childless couple due to my late age. Just two of us is all right with me.

Sometimes, I watch a girl having a formal birthday party on YouTube. I have been living for 36 years, and I never have one myself. I envy them, sometimes. My family isn't rich at all. I guess we are below middle class. My family never gives me a surprise birthday party before. I wanted to have a sweet 16 or a sweet 18 birthday party, so I could dress up very pretty. I wanted to create many happy memories during that event. All I have is a causal birthday with family and it is really a boring event. I don't usually have a happy memory from that. That's why.... My life is not great.

I have never been on a cruise until recently for 36 years! I boarded on Navigator of the Seas by Royal Caribbean to Ensenada, Mexico with two sisters and their families for a weekend. 7 of us. I was somewhat enjoyed the experience on it. The foods were... not best. I ate at the Cafe Promenade, the Dining Room, and the Windjammer. They were included, which was free. I personally liked some foods such as a mashed potato with gravy, a bread with a salted butter, and some desserts in the Windjammer. The cruise staffs were nice, though. When the cruise was ready to departure, it horned few times so loudly! I did swim in a pool for a short time because I am a non-swimmer, and I basically didn't like the cold water. I wanted to buy some merchandises, but I decided not to because many things are not in my budgets. When I slept in my bed in the stateroom, I could feel the ship was rocking gently. I originally stayed in the back of the cruise, but I moved to the front on the same deck as my ...

I live in California and the houses I looked at online were so expensive! They are least one million dollars for 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms at 1,200 SQ FT! It is so ridiculous! I even wonder when they will ever come back to the reasonable prices. I have always wish to buy a small house for myself and my independence, but I cannot afford it because I work a part time job. I feel like that the prices on these houses are scamming everyone. Of course, I'm very mad at it!

I sometime hear about the Americans with the Disability Acts is really weak. Many ignorant people are unfamiliar with the bill for the disabled people. I was confronted with an issue once before. I tried to use the drive thru at McDonald's. A dumb employee didn't take my order and I was very mad. I was forced to go inside the building and made the order. Once I arrived home, I made a complaint to the McDonald's headquarter via online. When the HQ responded to mine, the representee apologized and wanted to give me a voucher or a gift card, but I didn't want that. I told her or him that the employee of my local restaurant should be fired or retrain and familiarize with the ADA. The representee said s/he would do something about her. Ever since I never use the drive thru again. Some deaf drivers are lucky to use it as long as a fast-food restaurant employee understands their needs.