Nap and Dream

Do you like a horoscope as a hobby? I am a Capricorn. I don't really believe in it, anyways. I simply enjoy reading it. I have been desperate to find a new love for myself. I just don't understand how that thing works. How does it connect to an awaking life? When I read a love horoscope, I hope these could be true as it said. Yet, it doesn't exactly work at all. I think I am sad the fact that a magic doesn't exist. Maybe God has his.

I don't a wonderful mother since my childhood. She never set up a good example for me and my siblings. Mom has a mental illness of a hoariness. I don't think she is a positive person. She often imagines with many "what if" in her mind! Ugh! Really annoyed! I think she isn't deceived to be a mother for us because we don't need that kind of a mother. Mother always chose work over spending time with her children for a memory. She even doesn't bother to learn the American Sign Language for me and my sake. She thinks it is hard both English and ASL. What!? What the hell she talks about!? I learn both languages at the same time since I was about 6 years old! I never complain about it! I never ask Mom and Dad to give me a life! I just wish they could abandon me for a better family once they found out that I was Deaf. If I want to be a mother, I want to be better than my own mother! I really don't want to be like her with these negativities. I always wish to h...

I have been working for a retail for 8 1/2 years. I really dislike the store manager! He often asks me to work the full shift at a last minute! My body cannot handle a long period while working! I even consider quitting it many times, but what kind of a job I should have? I don't understand why he needs me to work in extending hour. Sure, I need more money, yet my body has its limit. I really wish I could have a new store manager who knows what to do with the employees. I really like to work from home like my siblings do. The boss is very annoyed! And maybe not good one. Ugh!