Did I have boyfriends in my 20s?

I often forget a person's name or face because I don't have good memory storage. I think I had met two tall, hearing men. I might meet them at a hotel and the outlet at Orange on Deaf Chat Night at different times and places. When I was in my 20s, I was not sure about my feelings for them even though they were handsome. I realize I should not have fallen for the face, but I need to understand their personalities whatever they were good or lousy. The love relationship is too complex to understand. That's why I struggle to understand it. I don't even have anyone to ask for advice. I should have taken a picture of a face, so I can remember theirs. Will I find my soulmate this time? Hope so!